The Learning Process: Being Judged
|Hajime mashite! Watashi no namae wa, Rekari desu! Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu!|
I've been practicing my Japanese!
|"Do you like anime?"|
I recently just started college a few weeks ago. One of my biggest fears when starting was not being able to find someone like me. I had no clue what to expect of the people there. Well, things didn't play out that bad, but there's not many people here with the same hobbies. So I just went with the flow, hoping for a miracle of some sort. Of course it didn't happen.
After I felt more comfortable, I started to display my hobbies. Figurines, posters, manga, videos, and anime gathered in my dorm room. People thought it was weird and began to question my habits. It's almost like being under constant surveillance, because you simply like something that's different. I couldn't hold up my phone due to Luka Megurine lining my case. If I did I was questioned who she was, why was she there, and much more. It became a nuisance.
The same continued with my poster and figurines. People wanted to see them for themselves. They wanted to look at them and criticize them. Almost as if everything was a joke. It's somewhat of a double standard really, It's fine to have a half-naked model on your wall, but if you have a modestly dressed anime character you're weird.
Sure, it sounds all bad, but the point I'm making is that it doesn't matter what other people think. When I was younger, I would say the same thing. The only difference was, in high school you were exiled if you didn't conform to the norm. I feel like habits of having to hide or water down interests still plague me to this day.
|Be yourself, without any care!|
Slowly everything has been making sense. Life seems so much sweeter when you enjoy the things you love. So to my fellow otaku, don't worry about the thoughts and actions of others. Don't worry if you aren't pleasing someone. Just do what feels right and what makes you happy, as long as you aren't hurting someone else in process!
See you guys soon! Matane!